Now, for those of you who don't know much about Hollywood, don't go holding your breath waiting for this film to come to a theater near you. I have to finish writing it. I have to try to sell it. Someone with money has to like it. And someone with even more money has to decide to produce it. Let's face it, straight-themed scripts are a long shot at best. So the chances of a T-themed script getting made are pretty slim. (Ladies, we should all be that slim.) But I'm going to give it my best shot. I just keep thinking that if it ever does get made, the premiere party and the red carpet walk will be way beyond fab!
Any way, right at the beginning of the script one cute little T-Kitten says to another, "Hey T-Girl, what's your "T" stand for?" It's played off as a joke in the script. But I think it's an interesting question. It makes the girl in the script stop and think, and it just might make you stop and think as well. I mean, think about it, what does your "T" stand for?
Are you still shy about your dressing ("Timid") or are you bold and confident ("Tantalizing")? Is your look Tacky or Trashy or Tasteful? Are you feeling Terrific? Tremendous? Are you a Tease? A Tart? A little Ticklish. A little Tipsy? And don't sell yourself short if you identify best with words like "Truthful" or "Trustworthy." There's way too little of that out there in girlworld.
It's a silly question, but it really gets to the heart of the issue for most of us. I mean, why in the world are we doing this? I remember how it was when I first started. There was a lot of sneaking around. There was a lot of frustration with the process. (That really never goes away. I'm still lousy at putting on fake eyelashes.) There was the fear and dread of being outed or caught. So there were secrets to keep. There were clothes that didn't fit right. Make-up that looked down right awful. And nights on the town where frankly I wished I'd just stayed home and watched a football game! (Yes. The boy in me is still strong.)
But here I am. Still dressing up. Still going out. And still wondering where the heck this all is supposed to lead. To be honest, I'm still not even sure where I want it to lead.
The big T-word for me is "Transcendent." That what we've all shooting for. That's where we all want to be. Content. Happy. At peace with our girlish side. But so far, to me, all that I've transcended is the door to my closet… and the doors to a few night clubs in L.A. and Las Vegas. By my standards, I feel like I still have a long way to go. So I guess my "T" stands for "Tomorrow." I've thought about my T-life a lot. I've fantasized quite a bit. And I've taken some steps towards making those fantasies a reality. So I'm hopeful.
I keep looking forward to tomorrow and to whatever progress tomorrow might hold for me. A new romance? A fun night out? A style breakthrough? A new makeup tip? Mindbending sex? Or maybe just a hot new pair of shoes. I'd settle for any of these. So for me, it's all about tomorrow.
Although, now that I think about it, "today" is a pretty good T-word too.
As for the girl in the script? In the end, after several adventures, she thinks about the friends she's made, the bonds they've formed, and the happy feeling of contentment she's experienced by expressing her T-side. And she's finally able to answer the question. She looks around at the friends who have helped her every step of the way, and she says that she now knows what her "T" stands for: "Thankful."
Now that to me is transcendent. I wish I could say that that was my word too. But I'm just not there yet. Who knows though. Maybe we'll all get there some day.
Take care out there.
Be safe. Be smart. Be sexy.